You know how I told you I was having bad dreams? Over and over and over. The same bad dreams over and over? 2 nights I had these dreams, they were making me crazy. They all featured the same person, a person I am very close to, a person I love. Used to be that when I would have dreams like this I would call the person they featured to find out what was up. Too many instances of the person thinking I was crazy to think that a night of bad dreams was a cosmic message, though. So I stopped the check-up calls. And eventually I stopped having dreams that seemed to require them.
Anyway, I ignored these latest dreams. Tried to shake them off. Chalked them up to TTC stress and disappointment (guess who hasn't ovulated and isn't likely to this month). But Saturday I made a call to someone for something unrelated to the dreams. And was hit with the bombshell that the person I was dreaming about is drowning. Really drowning. Swirling down the drain. It's bad and I can't really talk about it. Yesterday the dream actor was looking at hospitals. And I really hope that the tentative plan to go to a hospital for a short time turns into a reality. The problem is that you can force an adult into a hospital against their will, under certain circumstances, but you can't make them do what they need to do to get well. This person needs to decide that it's time to get well. It'll kill me if this person chooses another way out.